人生中，每时每刻都在接触新事物，不断学习，不断钻研。只要细心学习，那炉火必定纯厚，从而恒生自己的专属之 。语录。

看了郭老伯的访问录影之后，突然兴起想放屁一下，写一写关于那些正在想发达的青少年们。

这个年头有太多太多的青年想要成功，想要发达。我不认为是件坏事，这是值得鼓励的。但，同时地，有太多的青年过于迷信成功人士的精句，对那些成功人士怀着无上的崇拜,更甚的是迷信到收藏每一本自传的地步。偶尔也有些朋友问起我之所以让我成功的秘诀到底是什么呢？

每当有人向我提起这问题时，或跟我讨论如何成功，或者告诉我那些成功人士多么经典的精句时。我其实想告诉他们这两个字 - 天真。再加上一个善意的劝告 - 如果你觉得领悟了他所讲的心法，抱有他那样的态度行事，可以在日后造就你的成功，那么请千万别踏进商场，你会粉身碎骨，重则死无全尸。

成功！是绝对没有定律可言。。恳请那些写书的作者，激励课程班的演讲者不要误导众生，时常拿成功致富课题来择笔和讨论，我也明白你们只是为了找三餐而已。。。但市场上一经过你那番的洗脑之后，将会导致不知多少无知的青少年失败收场,而你就躲在房间角落里在数钞票。

青年们，如果你真的想成功，首要任务就是把你脑袋中那神圣的致富论拿掉，亲身体验残酷的世界，有必要时，就用残酷的手段来对付这世界。接下来要告诉你我从生活上赤裸裸体验到，纯属我个人的哲学。（也可参考 March 2010 的部落格。）还好，文章内容并不长，最近有些事让我沉醉而自甘堕落。不啰嗦，我们进入正题。

很多人都认为一个聪明的人将来会有前途，肯定会成功，而成功的人必定是聪明的。这其实又是一句名副其实的屁话。。反而在我眼中，聪明人的聪明，本身就是个累赘。此话怎讲？要知道创业，不是你用 “思考”， “想",就可以想出来，而是残忍地用一堆肮脏的血，留在心里的泪 ，留不完的汗，牺牲掉的友谊和亲情换回来的。 而这正正只有笨蛋的人，才会做出那样的事情来！聪明的人最爱把东西分析的非常清楚来避开犯错，却不知，这就是犯错的第一步。生活上见过好多人讨厌选择，因为他们要做的就是明智，最对的决定。（废话，有谁要做错决定，让人家当笨人来看）但很多时候，我都会告诉他们，趁我们还年轻时不要害怕去做错一个决定，也不要害怕尝试去选择错的决定，因为决定的“对与错”取决于你一直选择错误。。一直错。。一直错。。错下去。。错到你知道什么是对为止，什么是适合你的时候，那。。。就是对的决定了。因为一旦开始创业之后，你就再也没有多少本钱去选择，一个错误的决定或许会导致整盘事业溃败。遇到重要的决定时，你就只能靠着以往的经验带给你的自觉作出选择。而这自觉正好就可能是你以往犯下错的决定时卵生出来的精华，因为你知道什么是对的。

很多时候，人家都会赞我聪明，如何能干，其实心底深处很想告诉他们，“我根本就不是聪明人；第二。。我本身就特别地讨厌聪明人；第三。。这对我来说是个耻辱；最后。。他们还不够资格摆在一块和我相题并论。”

最近也常发现，现时代的年轻人有个通病。他们会觉得 “一百万而已吗！现在的一百万很少而已，没啥大不了” 。（我想这因该是激励课程班演讲人的洗脑术催眠了大家，听说有的甚至还在观众面前烧钞票来证明这五十块是没意义的，还教导观众把这五十块马上烧掉，明天起就要努力把这钱双倍赚回来。）你们嘴巴轻轻地说，就那样轻易抹杀创业者之前所付出过的能力，这是极为不负责，极度幼稚！你可知道那些创业人所付出的，经历的，是用多少幸劳，碰了不少鼻灰，踏上不少尸骨才换回来，不是你用想就可以不负责任地说你可以感受得到！反而，我非常肯定，能有此想法或说出此话之人，口袋里连个起码的十万块（一百万的十分之一）都没有。。。悲哀之极。

但说这话的人出发点有其二，他们不是幼稚，而是见识太广而导致。想想看，他身边的朋友个个发了小达，有车，有钱又有楼。当你叫这种见识多的人搞一盘生意，一年就只能赚那不过一两万块而已。。你觉得他会有兴趣，会正视这盘生意一眼吗？有的人说，要成功，见识就得广。这句话完全没错，但错的本身就在于创业之前和之后的分别。我非常肯定地告诉你。。。成功前，见识广是不需要的，反而需要的是你个人的专注。一个人的专注会因见识广，诱惑多而涣散。在我生活的圈子里恰恰就有好多那样的例子。我不聪明，比我聪明的人多得数不完，我有几位朋友，他们的确是个人才，比我聪明，比我本事，但每当他们发现到新的商机时，他们会放弃手上在实行的任务，或者觉得现在进行的东西回酬率没那个来得高，所以选择转行。就因为见识广的缘故，不断发掘到新的商机，他们就不断地更换，到头来的结果还是原地踏步，叫人惋惜。这种现象的年轻人在吉隆坡多不胜数。。所以，我还是奉劝年轻人，无论做些什么，都从专注开始，到了成功之后，再来增广你的见识也不迟。

记得以前独自在英国淘金时，有个女孩子问我： “我发觉你身边的朋友很少，你会因为自己很少朋友而伤心，后悔吗？” 我对她说我不后悔，也没什么好伤心的。 “但你要创业啊！你不是应该要有人脉交际才好办事吗？” （这肯定又是成功致富伦的催眠术起了作用）我没回应她，因为如果继续谈下去，肯定还会有很多问题接踵而来，女孩子嘛，比较罗嗦。还是那句老话，这完全没错，错又是错在于之前和之后的分别。创业前，朋友，交际越是更少，反倒越是种助力。你不需要太多的应酬开销，也节省在时间上的浪费在于无谓的人，事与物，集中火力专注你的第一桶金。朋友一个一个丢失，一个一个失去联络，就任由他们去吧。我们的生活本来就会有好多的人进进出出。先舍掉该舍弃的友谊，当你的第一桶金开始发酵时，交际的圈子也会跟着一起发酵。那时候不是你踏上人家门前开销请人吃饭；而是人家自动踏上门来开销请你吃饭。讽刺之极，人家不就是为了巴结你的钱而来，何必拒人以千里，那就好好善用这笔钱为你带来的威力和便利。。这就是活在现实世界的事实，不是吗？欣慰的是，我还不至于少了几位“朱门酒肉臭”的损友和一些可以谈得来的良友，完全不在利益之下交际。

读完了以上的内容，转回原本想说的话题，如果你觉得领悟了我所讲的一切，可为你以后带来成功，那么我还是那句老话 -- 放屁！你要我重复多少次？成功根本就没有定律！我也是在误导你而已！最后，谢谢大家听我放屁！明天我就假期去。


已大家共勉之 ： 【成功不需要好多次，一次就够】

Hi，大家好！

因本人事业发展程度过于迅速，无暇于流连这部落格，为此深感抱歉。。。无法兑现这篇 “狂人狂语”的笔录。 希望在不久的未来，一切走向稳定之后，再次择写部落格，或许会有更新一层的领悟。谢谢。

五月即将来临。。想想回来都已经有半年了。。从一踏出机场，就忙到至今。有的朋友都已经把我给遗忘了。。甚至有的寄了短讯都没回覆，名副其实地成为了好多人的路人甲 XD 有点不习惯到处都是生意上来往的朋友而已，反而可以和自己疯狂的朋友所剩无几。

好了，现在一切走向轨道上，终于可以让自己歇一歇。来着的五月将是自己的假期，正打算从吉打>>>>槟城>>>吉隆坡>>>新山>>>新加坡..反正好让我充电充电一下，再修补修补一下友谊。朋友们。。五月见！因为我们已经。。好久不见！

我將告訴你的現實世界，不是你所 "認為" 地那麼殘酷，而是你應該"知道" 的更加殘酷。




五月上載。（ Upload in May ）

今天早晨站在我家后院赏花，呼吸着徐徐吹来的风，抬头望着宇宙的蓝色天空，曝晒在阳光底下的影子只有我一人。突然有感而发。。。是时候来到这个时刻郑重地宣布：“王者即将归来，誓必风起云涌。我要走的这条传奇之路，脚下必有亡魂，当然也需要好多左右手。有能力但没资金的人，请自动向我毛遂自荐。觉得我是十恶不赦的人，请自动消失。”


“十年养晦魔一剑，已是时刻出鞘见血步上殿。 --- Xeno ---

[ 2/10/2010 ] Due to the expansion of 2 new branches at the same time,Im not be able to devote my time in here anymore or mayb forever. >.<'' C u all soon in real life right after i settle down all the businesses here.

At least...Bye for Now.

今天早晨站在我家后院赏花，呼吸着徐徐吹来的风，抬头望着宇宙的蓝色天空，曝晒在阳光底下的影子只有我一人。突然有感而发。。。是时候来到这个时刻郑重地宣布：“两个月后，王者即将归来，誓必风起云涌。我要走的这条传奇之路，脚下必有亡魂，当然也需要好多左右手。有能力但没资金的人，请自动向我毛遂自荐。觉得我是十恶不赦的人，请自动消失。”


“十年养晦魔一剑，已是时刻出鞘见血步上殿。 --- Xeno ---

[ 2/10/2010 ] Due to massive support from almost all my Blog readers,it motivates my spirit continue to pen down my life story in this bloG again...Whenever and Wherever you are, On your laptop,Just click in here,Im sharing my Life story and experience with all of you.

Catch up with this Upcoming Post in OCT blog - FRIEND - Do Not expect a sincere and touching topic about this title,instead Im expressing the darkness side of myself towards all we so called -FRIEND-

"Empty" topic for this month >.< Couldn't adopt a free time to blog at aLL due to the pack schedule...instead sharing some interesting clips to make a short shrift of my MAY blog.To be frank,this is sort of typical blogger, publish more clips when they lack of topic to write >.<'' Haha.

Anyway, Lets make this weekend fuLL with happiness by just a short while of smiling..as upcoming month in JUNE might have a little bit dark n serious topic to write..Enjoy. And exclusively thanks to Isabelle, I suppose u don't mind that I copied your blog's clip and post in mine..

*More interesting clip will be added before end of MAY*



*Guys,r u be able to afford a pretty girL to spend your wealth in this way?!*



*So cute oF them!! Recall my memory that playing together with my eldest brother when we were younG*



*Opppsss... Human Nature, Please forgive him..*




* What will you do if you were him?! *





* Jacky Cheung - the God Singer , Wish I can listen his Live performance one day *




* Love this anime and its theme sonG~*





* Simply Like the performance *




* Relax yourself before start a new day. *

Woke up in the morninG, looked upon the gloomy sky, it seemed like going to rain soon.Whole body felt so fluffy. The sickness paralysed the hands and Legs...can't even climbed up from bed. Was trying to shout, expect the very least hope that somebody gonna come and rescue. IronicaLLy, even all the energy had been used which enough to push the lungs out, just to make some voice and noice to gain attention of somebody...but... faiLed.

Eye is opened and lied on bed stiLL...having a long pause..Thought going to die alone in the room without anyone discover until after the corpse become smeLLy.

Strange thought arisen in minD,whether die in hot weather or coLd weather feeL more better?wiLL the corpse smeLL rendered the earth polluted even more severe and worsen the gLobaL warming?

Since no one care...Fall into sleep again...

Wake up...Suffering cold under the duvet.Needed someone to boiL Hot water;Needed someone to cook porridge;Needed someone to prepare the medicine;Needed someone to hug;Needed someone to depend on when the Giant is so fragiLe like a paper...Realise that there were aLL just extravagant imagination.


When the sunset turn the sky to orange and purple..The Giant promise himseLf to survive by any means necessary untiL the day back to his own Land and look upon the sky with the same colour oF sunset again...



Sick....

That's How it feeLs...EspeciaLLy survive aLL the while by your ownseLf.

18/4/2010
Xeno

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DedicateD to aLL the Superman in the worLd.

A new sonG from Jay in his coming new aLbum which I wouLd like to share excLusiveLy with aLL the guy who are fighting in the realistic worLd... For their life,their future, their famiLy...Or shouLd I say this is a song speciaLLy dedicated to our father who is always there try to protect us like a Superman.

No matter what..the guy adhere with the stronG responsibility,Capable and be abLe to bear with aLL the burden on his shouLder... eligibLe to become the SUPERMAN. Only sort of this man be abLe to understand the feeling of this song.

Those boys (only for boys,girls just ignore) who grow untiL so oLd and still taking money from famiLy will never understand about this song. You have no wrong, as I always emphasizing that don't feeL sorry by depending on your family, you have the right and priviledge to fully utilised the resources that can make you stronger. However, you are just simply less charming than the capabLe people Like me.Thanks you very much!

Superman Can't fLy..



如果超人会飞.那就让我在空中停一停歇
(If Superman Can fLy,Can I just have a chance to rest for a second.)
再次俯瞰这个世界、会让我觉得好一些
(Look at the whoLe worLd, maybe it makes me feel better.)
拯救地球好累 虽然有些疲惫但我还是会
(Save the worLd makes me feeL tired, However I will still move on.)
不要问我哭或流泪，因为超人不能留眼泪
(Don't ask whether I cry or dropping my tear before,becoz Superman Cannot Cry.)

记得小时候刚学钢琴时，凶巴巴，带着四方眼镜的老师，手上总是握住一把厚重的木尺，没啥的，就在我弹错时，狠狠地敲下来，手指头痛得让我想哭了出来。或许自小就有自虐的倾向吧，当我越想放弃的时候，就是我更想持续下去的理由。就这样，我练出了一手好琴艺。虽然现在因为现实的生存，不得不放弃这我最舍不得的艺术。不管怎样，在学钢琴的过程里，我领悟到了一个千古以来，流传至今，但没多少人有这胆量去实行的智慧。

人生就像一场艺术，你要怎样安排和演绎你自己这个角色。十三岁那年，我找到了另一项让我更深度着迷的艺术。。。那就是商业世界。这门艺术可以说是考验智商，情商，技巧，性格，命运，用得最多的一门艺术（中国流传的变脸艺术也可纳入其中）。对着自己喜爱的事物，当然可以废寝忘食地投入。。自小就开始不断地阅读各类各项的商业报章，然后做剪报，收集资料，品味着各个成功人士的自传。每吸收到一些自己所不知的知识和商业的秘密技巧时，这使我感到人生非常的充实，也让自己充满了自信。

二十五岁那年，是我人生中所遇到的第二黑暗期。但也是我领悟最多的一年。。黑暗期把我推入了深渊，也成就了我入魔的道路。当一个人的第三只魔眼被打开时，你会发觉你所看到的世界原来是个•天堂•-一个魔鬼的天堂。好多以前不懂的假象都被魔眼挖掘了出来。这使我明白到原来我在书上，报章上读过的，学过的，统统都是胜利者编造出来让人觉得他们很神圣的假象而已。这时候当一个艺术者进入了瓶颈，开始觉得迷茫时。。。他会不断地思索，该怎么突破自己，将这一门艺术提升到一个普通人踏不到的世界。

刚巧那时候看了一部非常有意思的影片。虽然不怎么记得它的情节，但让我印象最深刻的是男主角在图书馆里被一位清洁工人嘲笑：“如果你想当一个成功的历史学家，你应该马上踏出这儿，走向世界。”看似平凡的一句话，但却让我深思了好久。。。终于让我悟到了突破自己的途径。二话不说，即刻将自己从十三岁开始收集到的资料统统丢掉，也将自己的法律文凭一起烧毁，然后踏出家门，走向英国，展开了人生不平凡的经历。有谁会想到一位法律系优等成绩毕业的大学生竟然做了那么低贱，也让人瞧不起的工作。（这些都有好多法律系的学弟学妹们可以作证，其中的几位也因为我下等级的工作不敢靠过来，但不能怪他们，因为自己的艺术到了一个不为常人所能了解的境界。）

外表的低贱，但却高昂的壮志，让我在短短这一年半里，当上了两间餐馆的经理。另一份工作，老板也顺利开了分行。称赞我的人从早上赞到晚上，从街头排到街尾，这一点都不夸张。快速地崛起，我赚到了人生的第一桶金。虽然不至于到了第一个一百万，但已不远矣。

人生和做生意是一样的，它们都被我归类为艺术。要练出一手好琴艺，没捷径，就是从最基本，最难开始。在此谢谢那些向我吐口水的黑人，丢我薯条的坯子，看不起我的疯子，踩低我自尊的富裕小孩子；欣赏我的老板们，帮我渡过难关的贵人，你们都是我艺术人生历练中非常重要的人物。

以下的精句都是属于我本身快速崛起的精髓所在。如果不了解，或不赞同，对不起。。我们之间的艺术修为还有一段距离。这些精句的目的不只是把它传给下一代的人，也为自己走过的里程碑刻下一个回忆，或许某年某日自己遇到迷茫时，可以再打开这文章来充电。。

每一段，每一句，每一字，都是属于我亲手调制的精华。。

首先。。来个我认为可以表达到我内心世界的经典歌词，来自周杰伦的<红模仿>

[我坚持风格我活在我的世界,谁都插不上嘴,
唱反调是我的本性,出其不意是我的个性,
就算我站在山顶,也只不过是个平民老百姓,
但我的肩膀 会有两块空地,那就是勇气与毅力
下坡的路不费工夫 别人已经帮你铺路，但我选择了上坡，
因为我取名叫自负 谦虚和那虚伪，就差一个字
有时有点分不清，因为我喜欢真实的自己，
我不能够后退 因为不是绿叶。]

-x-我是个艺术行者，但我练的不是唱歌，跳舞，画画这类门的艺术，而是从古流传至今，但不为多少人知的•黑暗艺术•。一旦入魔，只要拿捏地好，你的智慧将比常人快几百年的光阴。

-e-人之初，并非性本善，反而是万恶之首。道德，宗教，故事的存在就是最好的证明。好多人的魔性就这样自小被这些 “咒语”给封存了起来。

-n-正派思想是失败者的彩排。

-o-道德教育是留给穷人，普通人，和失败者伤心时“自慰”的的安慰语而已。

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-x-很多人都将“聪明”和“智慧”画成了一条线，而这一条线是可以决定你成功与否的一条线。这是最致命的一厢情愿想法。

-£-聪明是可以用钱买回来；智慧是抽象领悟的。

-N-人类的平凡来自于“他们总觉得自己比别人聪明，比别人知道得多”。而我最大的智慧来自于“我总是知道得比别人少，也不比别人聪明”。

-0-好多人不断地追求该怎么让自己更聪明，让人觉得他是个无所不知的智者，这就是聪明的象征；但我的艺术境界到了修炼该怎么让自己看起来笨一点，这叫智慧。

-X-如果某天有人问我：“你人生中最大的失败点是什么”，我会好不犹豫地答他：“花在学院里念书的时间是我最大的失败”。

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-X-我的自信和自负根本挂不上钩，因为我的自信是从无数中的挫败建立起来而坚韧不倒。

-E-对普通人来说，骄傲的人不求上进，也必然断臂。但对我而言，只要把“傲”字诀炼好，必然登峰造极。

-N-我自恋，但我自恋的是自己的本事和实力，毅力与勇气。

-o-傲字诀第一绝。。霸者之路我号令，谁敢阻挡成灰烬，若要天不绝我于此地，背藏傲骨烧更劲。

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-x-第一桶金靠体力；第二桶金靠智力；第三桶金一点都不用力。

-3-如果一个人赢了你之后，笑着讽刺你时，在心理告诉自己：“人生路还长，没到睡进棺材的那一天，都不知谁胜谁负。”

-n-要有效率地解决问题，先向妓女这行业学习她们“不考虑心情”的心法。

-0-女人眼中痛恨的Playboy，其实是商业界的成交高手。只可惜他们没几个察觉自己的本领可以放在这领域上，无限大的发挥。

-x-活在这世上，遇到不公平的命运，你是没办法上诉的；但公平是给可以靠自己创造出来的。

-E-没有人会在意你的自尊，只有人在意你的成就。如果你是个穷鬼或生在贫穷的家庭，你就是穷，你也没得怨，因为你连怨的资格都没有。

-N-乱发脾气的人没智慧；没脾气的人没大志；有脾气而懂得压抑自己，等待时机报复的叫大智慧。

-0-我只看人家的失败，不看人家的成功。

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-X-在那么多赞美我的颂语之中，最讨厌听到的是“你有那么高的理想，你一定会成功的。”对我而言有理想的人反而是最容易失败的人。

-E-我和其他的小孩子肯本就没两样，都是好玩的。不同的是，他们追求在网上或电子游戏中挤入十大强者行列；而我追求的是在人生游戏上占上百万富翁名单里的一个小小角落而已。

-N-有人问我，你不觉得这样的追求让自己很辛苦吗？我反问他，你有见过哪个小孩沉迷于电子游戏，会告诉你他很累，很辛苦的吗？

-0-请大家以后别把我和聪明的人摆在一块，第一。。因为我不是；第二。。我本身讨厌聪明的人；第三。。这对我来说是个耻辱；第四。。他们还不够资格和我相题并论。

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-Xeno-

当每个人都把我称为邪恶死神时，请相信我的内心还住着一个又可爱又善良的小绵羊。

曾经读过那么一个关于使命感的故事。。。

这故事是这样的。。。

在北面有个大海，大海里有条大鱼，但很奇怪，这条大鱼一直以来都是不动的。它可以吃水里面的杂物和水来养命保活，慢慢地这条大鱼的身体开始变大，大得好几万公里长。这时它开始浮出了海面，一浮出时，它的身体就开始长出了翅膀，身体的巨大也遮盖了那红红的夕阳，然后用力一飞。。。就飞向了南海的天空，过着太平盛世的生活。

但。。。正当要飞的当儿，整片天空卷起了一股龙卷风，大海也卷起了海啸，那股气势和破坏力造成了它身边的每一个地方都很严重的破坏。

就在这条大鱼飞上天时，刚巧有两只小鸟看到。这两只小鸟站在一棵大树上，看到了以上的情节，两只小鸟就有了以下的对话：“这条鱼为了自己的使命感和理想,却牺牲了它四周围的所有东西，甚至所有的生命，值得吗？也令到我们无家可归。每一个人都要跟着它的使命感来走，万物都要为它哭泣，值得吗？"

当小鸟谈着时，它们站在的大树发出了笑声，笑那两只小鸟，然后问他们： ”你知道你的寿命有多长吗？我这颗大树见的人，事，物比你们更多啊。我身上每一天都会有一条小虫出身。早上出身，晚上就死亡。它不知道春天的样子，也不知道秋天的景色。而你们两只小鸟的寿命也只不过是仅仅的十年而已。当我闭上眼睡了一觉，张开眼就已经有一百年了，所以你们这些小小的小鸟又如何知道那条大鱼躲在深海里捱了多久，怀着强烈使命感，想要爆发的想法啊..."

这则故事是摘于庄子。

当年读着这篇故事的我也只不过是个乳臭未干的年轻小伙子，“使命感”和“爆发”这两个字深深地络印在脑海里
，心理一味以为只要怀着这股情操和壮志就能达到目的地。很明显，这只不过是我幻想出来的世界而已。

踏进了真正战场时，才知道原来故事的精髓藏在这段字里头 “牺牲了四周围的所有东西，甚至所有的生命，每一个人都要跟着它的使命感来走，万物都要为它哭泣。”

所以。。。那些曾经被我牺牲，被我背叛，被我欺骗，被我伤害过的人。因为我的翅膀已长了出来，再不飞，就对不起自己的使命感。。所以我必须踏着你们的尸骨来成就我的霸者之路。。。

不要问我失去了那么多好友，值得吗？


答案是肯定的。。。非常值得。

Just a word -Tired... After working from morning til night unstoppable 7days a week,consecutively one and half month.

Just a word -Relief... Now can have a good rest at home and start writting the short blog to update myself to everyone who concern about me.

Just a word -Sad... Thought everything already going smooth in U.k, but something happen unexpected.AGAIN!

Just a word -Happy... Coz my parent is coming to uk and visit me this coming summer.

Just a word -Excited... My base in M'sia is properly set up. Will be back in few more months later,and start playing the "dotA" game which belong to me.

Just a word -Arrogant... I will definitely write a book "How to become a Millionaire in 5 years with an empty hand."

Just a word -Actually... Just finish typing a blog with the title "Clarification About Myself", suppose to publish in this month.However, it seems too long, therefore just dump it aside.

Just a word -Sorry... Feel sorry to all my friends,as not trying hard to keep in touch with everyone of you, as well as my family.

Just a word -Unbeatable... Who can only spend £28(RM150) in UK per month?(Rental,eat,transport)Answer...That is only ME..

Just a word -Wondering... Why Jay Chou's new aLbum haven't release yet?Almost all the chinese song can't listen nowadays!

Just a word -Wanted... To replace my super oLd phone with a New iphone 4G in this coming august before going back to M'sia.

Just a word -Bye...

Suppose to continue with "3 horoscope that I hate the most",however, it is real hard for me to choose the specific 3 horoscopes that I hate the most, was trying to dig out which 3 of them could be the worst one to me, but only 2 I could figure out among the twelve. As everyone knew that Libra is prone to be very casual style of horoscope, we wouldn’t be able to get hot temper in a sudden; we wouldn’t create rival; we wouldn’t hate one specific people perpetually in our mind; we try to avoid confliction between a relationship; we are tolerable, harmonically, peacefully, and of course gentleman is always a good term to describe us. *Thanks you* Therefore the horoscopes which had been listed out in the following post could be deemed as the horoscope that always bringing trouble to Libra babies. Put it in the exact way, the champion of this post is some sort of mentally or personality disorder human.

Lets we start with the 1st runner up, It is…


VIRGO!

When come to Virgo, 1st thing 1st, the perfection. Whatever they require are just perfection. I was wondering do they ever ask themselves a question like this: “Can I create a perfect environment and live in the perfect world?” Undoubtedly, the answer is 99.99% Impossible! A human who barely experience in the real life could easily answer this question without a second of thought. However, in my experience, 9 out of 10 Virgo are perfectionism, often strive in such philosophy to deal with every single issue in their life. Therefore they are unable to work in a team most of the time due to such behaviour. They are indeed smart, and have a brilliant observation skill compare to all other horoscope, nevertheless, lack of wisdom. Hopefully, they can learn through their real life experience in the future that actually the perfection they seek for is imperfect, contrary the imperfection is the exact real perfect. (p/s: Perhaps, people may ask, Why should I emphasizing on “wisdom” so often, this involve a very deep knowledge, unable to share here otherwise will be a long post, but I would jump to conclusion and say that this is the most crucial key for you to be success in your life.) Most of the time, they are just blaming the consequences and try to justify their thought rather than using their own ability to solve the problem. If you have a Virgo friend, I’m pretty sure you will always listen their blaming about her/his team members or their own life… etc.

Subsequently, I would criticise that 10 out of 10 of Virgo are of NO LOGIC in terms of the way or the method they adopted to deal with the matter. I had few experiences to team with them and work together before and the disputes always arisen because of their illogical thinking, and then at the end of the day, they only realised that they are actually the one who made the wrong decision. Here they go again, they will start blaming others or themselves …sigh, what a poor Virgo…sorry but have to say, this involve my mother as well. This is what I hate the most from them, they just can’t stop blaming but never take action to deal with it or they DO take action but the action is of NO LOGIC at all.

If any of the Virgo reading this post, please make a case study about what we interpret as perfection in life, you can’t just compel everyone to be perfect like you nor asking everyone to follow your perfect way, this indeed might cause disharmony within a team synergy and pull down the morale in a team, render the whole plan crashed. Bear it in mind Perfect is the imperfect.

Just a little bit more to add about Virgo foible. I would bet 9 out of 10 Virgo like to write something or schedule in a paper and then stick them on the wall. Recall from my impression, I had visited to the house of 5 Virgo friends before, 1st thing which came into my vision was the paper which they stick on the wall. This indeed including my mummy as well, thus you might find that my house is full of the timetable paper stick on the wall or on the door.since when I young I already get used to her accustom by sticking the paper all around the house, and then through the life experience, started to recognise few Virgo friends, discovered that they actually have the same foible like my mum, this has further proven my observation. This indeed has never mentioned in any forum or horoscope book before, in order to prove my said, please pay attention with your virgo friends that surrounded you. You will get surprise from what I had told you.

And now, let’s come to the Champion of the Champion for which I hated the most, simply because of their inhuman and mentally disorder. I swore to myself, such a horoscope people can’t stay closely as a friend, instead it is more than enough by trying to keep a proper distance as a “hello” friend. However, not for girl…there is some explanation later. And so let me introduce you the very tricky, astute, smart and high wisdom horoscope – the Capricorn.



Actually, nothing much to comment on them. It doesn’t mean I not familiar with Capricorn, instead don’t really have a good impression towards their personality and behaviour for all the Capricorn that I recognised. They are ruthless, cunning, efficient, and exceptionally unpredictable; possess indeed a very strong EQ to hide all their emotions within themselves, no one are able to know what is in their mind. Therefore I would like to classify some sort of people as VDP – Very Dangerous Person. To be frank, I had lost to these Sagittarius peoples for couple of times in terms of strategy, EQ, and the speed. When they start taking action, it could be the most inhuman one and efficient.

I don’t have much statistic to support the accuracy of the following point but had experienced myself for 3 cases that these horoscopes appear to be able to terminate a relationship or friendship within a second. In this specific case, I would split it up to 3 parts of view.

In the view of socialising ground, these people could be a very dangerous human (the reason why I emphasize them as “HUMAN”, simply because sometime I don’t even be able to recognise them as a human or as an ANIMAL.), right after you have fulfilled his/her purpose of utilising, they will just turn his head back and don’t know who you are forever.

BUT, in the point of a business, He/She could play an important role as a leader within an organisation. (Almost all the prerequisite characteristics of a leader are listed above.) Despite of the bad impression towards them, I will certainly hire these human as a supervisor for my businesses, because of their personality. If they do respect you from the bottom of their heart, they will serve you with loyalty and they are also being able to keep everyone under his supervision strictly.

Come to the point of a Girl, they are actually a very loyalty partner to be, and of course a very wise lady to assist you in anytime you need them. Try to imagine, why do they possess with such ruthless and cunning personality? Simply because this is their inheritance personality to protect themselves from the harm. What if Sagittarius lady become a people’s wife one day in the future and these protection consciousnesses apply in her husband? I would make a wild prediction here, this guy could be very fortunate and feel secure all the time. Therefore I would like to say that this Capricorn lady is a good wife and a good mother in the future.

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Merry Xmas

When “December” comes to visit U.k, it is the official month to declare that winter begins. While walking on the street, it is not difficult to sense that the Christmas is around the corner. Christmas joy fills the air and magic lights up the atmosphere, bell is ringing from nowhere, and Christmas choral symphony surrounded the whole city. The very different feel is that it sang by a choral party on the street under the weather of -3’ degree, very impressed me with their rhythmic composure and of course their inheritance cold-proof resistance skin ( Some blonde still wearing mini skirt, that’s why we call Hot & Spicy, Finger licking good.)A weird thought rose up in my mind which if I could play a X’mas song on the street and every single pedestrian on the street generously throw me with just a pound, I guess I could earn 3000++pounds per day and thus I could buy myself a X’mas present as a reward, haha.

In such a lonely Christmas, I got nowhere to go, but just to sit here and rest at home and writing this blog. However, I wish one day…one day I can hold the hand of the girl I love the most in my life and hug her very tight to have a slow dance in such a romantic atmosphere accompanied with the light snow. I guess this could be the best moment of my life.

Bye Bye Year 2009.

Time flies… Looked at the calendar in my mobile and just realised that we are going to reach to the end of Nov, meaning few more days later will be December, and it also implies that after 9 more months, my foot will step on the land of Malaysia! yes!!! Anyway, this month gonna share with everyone an interesting and also my used-to-be favourite topic. It really takes me quite a long time to observe and collect all the information regarding to this topic and further prove its creditability before publishing. I’m pretty sure that the following particular is not what you can find in the horoscope book or online articles instead a very real life observation’s information via my own eye, which is Xeno’s version of Horoscope.

Still remember that I was once very INTO the horoscope. Found it quite interesting and accurate, especially the attitude they described for every horoscope respectively. And then, I started to make some survey to the horoscope in the scientific point of view, and realised that it really exists. But of course this is not the topic I going to share with, otherwise everyone might fall asleep here. However, I would like to emphasize that the Horoscope is actually not a method to be exploited to predict your future nor “what will happen today” which you could find in newspaper every day, that’s crap. I would suggest that it is a very useful method for you to understand a human being and its characteristic, (it could be rebutted that human kind possess approximately 60 billion different types of characteristic, BUT…aiyor, told ya, this week is relax topic, so no debating here, ok.) and then apply it into your real life to interact with different type of people, likewise you can control or fight with your rival by first understanding with their attitude.

Before start the main topic, please confiscate your detective IQ to doubt on its accuracy as well as the current knowledge related to the horoscope that you understand, meantime, deem this topic as a hilarious reference to cheer up your weekend.

Ain’t gonna illustrates twelve horoscope in the post otherwise will sum up a very long story. Instead, I will just sharing with everyone the 3 types of horoscopes that I like the most and hate the most( next month ). And so let’s start with the 2nd-runner up horoscope that I Like the most.

It is…..

Aquarius


Why Aquarius? I suppose Aquarius have some special fate with the Libra. Every Aquarius babies that I recognised, 1st thing 1st, their childish motion and naive thought really causing me to hate them. Undeniably, there are many of them like to come out some funny and childish (yet not very childish) idea to entertain the people surrounded them. I as a Libra the gentle star, definitely hesitate to tolerate and having fun together with those over-childish enthusiasm.

However, day by day, abominate towards them will be set aside. In fact, inner part of a Libra is like a baby, they also craving to play like a child, but just because of their noble and elegance impression, they would hide their naive secretly, therefore not to lose their gentleness in public. When back to the private time, this horoscope could be the best one to accompany with, simply because they can find their trueness in the body of Aquarius.

Let me to reveal some secret regarding to these 3 close friends of mine who also the Aquarius (2 girls,1 guy), they have some special foible. Foible means some strange attitude which you couldn’t understand with normal course of understanding.
Firstly, they really like to FART in front of me in purpose!! I really don’t understand why!! Even though they are girls! After the fart, (Look at their face) they look seems satisfy and complacent, probably because their “astute plan” had been succeeded, and then what….they still dare to make me a happy smile! Really fainted!

Secondly, their face is exceptionally thick! Even though how you complaint or criticise them, they will still move forward with their own way and feeling happy there without caring everyone’s perspective towards them. I guess this could be their natural genetic by not getting involved in any kind of dispute.

And come to the 3rd point, I hope they can forgive my following harsh comment (I know they will, that’s why I dare to write it down here, haha.) They are actually smart! BUT lack of wisdom. (Guys, Don’t mix up smart and wisdom.) Put it in this way, they are smart enough to handle every problem that come against them, but lack of wisdom to “calculate” the risk and the consequence of the method they adopted to solve the specific problem. In other word, they only concern with short term plan instead of long-term one. That’s why until now, I hardly to see anyone with the Aquarius Horoscope is a successful businessman. No offence, really. No matter what, Aquarius is not the horoscope that I would like to team with as a business partner, instead they can be a close friend who can always have fun with me or listen to my problem…because I’m still a little Baby Boy just like them. O(^.^)O –End-

Let’s we come to the 1st runner up…deng deng deng deng. They are…..My Super Favourite, the top class horoscope of the world, and surely the irresistible charming superstar –

IT IS LIBRA.



Hoho, when come to this horoscope, I am so bloody excited. Simply because, 10 best friends of mine, 6 of them are LIBRA . Anyway I try to make it short, otherwise it could be a very long grandma story.

When we talk about Libra, 1st thing you should bear in your mind, *ahem* that is “handsome” or “pretty”. Even though if some of us (including me) are not handsome like those celebrity, but the charming power station within us is like switching up to the max, once it operated, everyone will be electrocuted. *ahem* Excuse my arrogant *ahem*… This is our natural self-confident, and impossible to eradicate from our gen.

I guess if my Libra Babies friends reading this post, they will certainly GIVE ME A BIG FIVE, and all the other horoscope will response us with a Booooo.

Anyway, it seems odd as whenever I 1st recognise a new friend, if the conversation between us can be longer than half an hour, then I’m pretty sure that he or she is a Libra. Usually the topic will involve about the art, the romantic, and the very abstract subject. Basically, there are few easy points for you to know that this person is belong to the libra horoscope.

Firstly, it is not hard to make a wild guess or to know that this fellow could be a Libra guy or girl. 8 out of 10 Libra babies usually share a common interest which is like to mention to other people that “We are LIBRA”,Haha. I know it is kind of embarrassing but still we will promote our horosopce nowhere until everyone know about the existence of Libra. No other reason, just because we are proud to be a Libra the very gentleman n charming star.

Secondly, 8 out of 10 of Libra certainly will have the cells of ART, it could be dancing, drawing, playing different type of musical instrument as well as in doing business. Yupe, doing business could be deemed as an Art, and so it is not difficult to see so many Libra babies out there are successful with their own business.Bravo!!

In the third point, I’m not sure my version is true one or not, but so far 10 out of 10 Libra that I know, including me, Do Not Like to Pick Up their Mobile Phone and answer the call. I don’t know about their reason, but I do know about mine. When we need to be alone, we really mean to, and wouldn’t pick up any incoming call. Still remember that, one of my friend look for this girl (a Libra) urgently to borrow her assignment as a reference, and then he tried to make a call to this girl, nevertheless no one answered the call even after 10 times repeating calling. I was beside him, and feel so funny by looking at his tension emotion, then I popped a question “Do you believe about horoscope.” He answered:“ Don’t bother me about this now, if I still couldn't reach her and get the assignment by tonight, I surely fail this subject.” I made a laugh and told him "ok then, believe me and just follow what I said, she is Libra, if Libra doesn’t want to pick up a call, no matter how hard you try, she also wouldn’t pick it up. Instead you can give her a text msg, you try and see” And so he did. Surprisingly for him (but not for me), the text msg reply within a minute, and so thing sorted out. See… sometime even how smart we are, if we can’t understand one people’s attitude before communicate or interact with him or her, we are just nonthing.

But how come this horoscope can only be the 1st runner up but not the champion?! And who is the real champion that I like the most? In fact, Libra pak tor together with Libra, it could be a very match combination since we are sharing with many common points and often considerate and tolerate with each other, therefore dispute will not arisen so easily between the Libra couple. However, because of this over-toleration, it renders this pair of couple lack of spark! yes, we need spark to survive. After having the discussion with all the libra, everyone of us unanimously raise up our hand and legs to agree that...


GEMINI is our CHAMPION!



Yes..it is Gemini?! Very simple answer, because they can bring us the spark, the spark of sweet pak tor feeling. Actually, most of the Gemini babies that i recognised are very x100000 playful, they like to bluff, big hole, make fool and fleer on others (they only possess with the mind of making fun without the bad motive). This is not over yet, they have further multi-tons of topic and "sam gu lok poh" information to share with you, and don't know why...they really like to chat with the phone. Therefore you will not get bored in any scene and any time as long as gemini is with you, and so FUN and ENJOYABLE are GUARANTEED.

I sparked by gemini for couple of times, not only the points i mentioned above, but also because of their smile, it is so 100% seducing and pretty! To be frank, I'm sort of boring guy to be with, what is in my brain is only business and life game in realistic world, and therefore I really lack of topic to blow water with people,instead I will just sitting there and listen people talking all the time. At this moment, Gemini is the one who play an important role to cheer my day up.

Some tips for the guy or girl who going after the gemini. Gemini are capricious, and having couples of personalities at the same time (doesn't mean they are psychopath). If you really want to be with them,I would susgest that your mind and the brain velocity must function as quick as possible, otherwise you certainly not be able to catch up with all the topic he/she going to tell you. The conversation can be start with today's weather in the 1st second,and the next second, she can tell you that she haven't go to toilet to make shit this morning, and suddenly she will tell you her childhood story ...*nearly faint*...Within a minute, she already can comes up with so many topics which is not related at all with the previous topic she mentioned with. Gosh! Besides, there is one different point I do take note about them with Libra, which is DON'T MSN or SMS them, if you really want to talk with them, call them straight! otherwise you will have to expect their reply by next morning or next 2 days later! I met few gemini girls and guy in my journey, 6 out of 6 of them had proven all these points above.


The Angel and Devil Combination - Gemini


Try to pay attention with your friends surrounded you, it could be very fun by classified all of your friends in different type of horoscope and then try to observe and understand their general attitude 1st before going beyond the very detail of humanity. Subsequently choose the one who is the most suitable you to be your friend, business partner or life partner or soulmate >.<'' Gemini is a good choice though,haha!( They are sexy deviL ) The next coming month, I will share with the "Horoscope that I HATE the most"...grhhhh geram nyerrrr!! Let me boom them gao gao here next month! c ya!

[Don't read this story if you found it quite long. Read it only when you feel bored.]

Have you ever tried to plant and grow a flower or fruit tree by yourself before? I guess not many of your answer will be a “Yes”, neither do I.

After experienced with so many problems, handled with so many types of contingencies that arisen in my plan, eventually I can make a real full stop for the 1st paragraph of my life story and declare myself temporarily revert back to peaceful life.

However, while remaining in such silent moment, it is hard to control my mind to recall back all the past memory. Some bad, some good, but I think most of them are real bad experiences, yet very useful to me in the future.

While lying on my bed, I stare at the fluffy cloud upon the blue-blue sky, the wind flow into my room gently and touch on my face, it makes me feel so tired, so....tired....and so drowsy...Before a Man reach to the path of success, there are so many efforts, energy, and blood, have to pay. My eyes become heavy and heavier...I guess I should take a long-long nap now.

Time machine has brought me back to the primitive.

“Once upon a time, there was a young little kid who living in a sweet and fortunate life with his family. Every morning surely awaken from the sweet dream, and without anything to worry what will happen next. 1st thing to do was to go to the balcony, taking a fresh air, fixed his gaze at the sunrise on the line of the coast ahead and picking up a sunshine smile. As usual, he will then run to the garden to see his grandmamma who was always there to decorate and taking care with her plants. He squatted down and looked at her quietly, without interfering her leisure moment. She just looked at him and smiled.

Notwithstanding this kid knew that gardening is one of his grandmama’s hobbies, the real passionate which couldn’t be devastated just because of tiredness. But still, he has a doubt that why grandmama would devotes all the time in caring with those plants even though they might shrivel up one day.Unexpectedly, the answer given by his grandmother could be sum up as the ending part of this Apple Tress Story, despite the fact that he couldn't understand at that moement.

This kid treats his life with casual and slightly amused indulgence. He was thinking “why don’t I enjoy eating those apple which plant and grown up by my parents,” Therefore to make his life easier without the need to plant by himself.Such juvenile nature of his decadence simply intolerable by his parent and so this kid has been reprimanded and was told that: “You already reach the age ample enough to be independent, and so please stop eating free meal everyday. Go and plant your own apple tree by yourself, one day you might find that the taste is more unique than those you eating right now.” However, such an expostulation did not worked on him, he continue indulged himself by having fun and ask for free apple all the time. In his mind, no matter how the apple has been planted or who going to plant it, apple still an apple, the taste wouldn’t vary so much, as long as it can fulfil his daily needs, he don’t even care where the apple comes from.

One day, his father couldn’t stand anymore to see this attitude continues and eventually compelled to come to such a decision. “You are no longer to have the privilege to take my apple anymore, not even one! The apple you still eating inside your mouth is the last one I can give you. Get out from this house and take the seed, plant it yourself. You don’t even have the right to plant in my land, please go far far away! ”This young boy knew that his father was not joking at this very moment, and so he quickly puked out the seed and hold it tightly, because this could be the last hope before he has lost everything.



This kid believed that with his extraordinary intelligent, he may be able to survive without the need of the help from his parent. Therefore, he decided to travel to the other Island and commenced the journey of planting his own apple tree. However, this poor little kid never expect that this could be the real nightmare begins.

Once arrived to this new island, he started to search for an accommodation. He was thinking to look for a friend who he believed that this friend might give him a hand in redeem for his previous help. But this poor kid had been rejected directly, even though tried to beg for a night to sleep on the floor. He was then prepared himself to sleep with those drunken and smelly vagrant in the underground- tube tunnel for couple of weeks before he can get a new room to stay. At this very critical moment, fate doesn’t push him to the dead corner; instead he found an empty room through some stranger. I suppose it must be the universal circulation, when u got something, you will have to pay for something else. The room is even dirty and stink than the underground-tube tunnel, further with the agreement that he must surrender 6month rental to the landlord, he knew clearly that this is definitely ridiculous, but the extreme cold weather had again changed his mind and compelling him to agree with such unreasonable clause. He was then allowed to stay for 5 days before the landlord came over to collect money from him. For the sake of avoiding staying under the cold, he made such a decision just to gain these 5days time in order to re-charge his energy before stand up and fight again! Yes, fight! Eventually, he understands, when everything is on his own, he have to fight in order to survive irrespective of any agreement that promised to someone.

When the fifth day arrived, likewise the long charged of energy, 4 o’clock in the midnight, he already prepared properly... for the plan of --- runaway! Pulling all his luggage and boxes to the new house which he had found a day ago. Moving all the stuff under such an extreme cold weather was a real torture experience, finger and the toe was so freezing, even one second of breathing, the air might went into the lung and causing the cells frozen. He did not even realised that the knife had stabbed through one of the boxes and scratched his leg, rendered a big wound and bleeding severely. He was just dragging all his stuff and moved forward and moved. The Sun had just risen up when this poor kid arrived to his new shelter. He smiled. He knew the reason why he smiled...

The new house symbolised a new start for him. Time flies, after allocated properly for his personal life and accommodation matter, it was already 3 months since the day he left home. One of the silent nights, he lied on his bed and hold tightly with the apple seed, and there are so much feeling which couldn’t expressed with just a word. Simply because it could be a big day for him tomorrow as this was like a “finally” to him. The next morning, he brought all the tools and the seed to the backyard along with the mood of excitement and started to plant it. However, “finally” seemed still far away from his destination, there were so many tools he lacked of before he can plant it into the ground. The tools is not cheap, therefore, in order to get a comprehensive one, he had to work, even though it was the very lowest profile job. In this stage, he had to abandon his noble prestige, experience the taste of spirit been humiliated and fleered by everyone and from nowhere. This could be considered as one of the hardest stage in his life. However, he stood firmly still and insisted with his faith, didn’t even care for all the blood, tiredness, effort which he had paid for in return for the tools.

Day by day, collectively with all the money, he finally bought all the tools and prepared for the stage of planting. This night, he was the most fortunate people in the world; he could felt the satisfactory within his mind for the very 1st time.


He looked after the tree everyday like his grandmamma did. Taking care properly from the Spring to Summer, and the Sun burnt him like the ironing on the human skin; From Summer to Autumn, the wind blown into his bone like a house without a window; From Autumn to the winter, the cold could almost froze a human’s heart and the blood from being operated. Even though suffering in fever, flu, and the cold, this kid still insisted with his iron-will just to preserve his apple tree from being destroyed. I guess Luck still not accompany with this kid enough, instead more and more hard stage going after him.




One day, the storm snowing attacked on this island, he had nothing to do to prevent this natural disaster. Looking on the ground where the apple tree was planted, but it had now covered with a thick mantle of snow. It was a real huge impact to this poor kid, destroyed all his monthly efforts within just a few hours. I suppose he had reached to his limit, He bit his teeth tightly, just to endure the tears from dropping out, because he knew that he is not such a vulnerable man, nevertheless he failed to… Fate fooling on him again and again…

Probably because of the inheritance attitude since young, the desire of victory and determination had again geared up his mind and driven him to insist on the mission. He swore in his mind firmly: “From today onwards, if there is anything happens on me, I only allow myself to be controlled by the emotion just for 30minutes, and then the rest of the time the emotion must be dead in my cells.”

With such a faith, after the storm snowing stopped, he was then plant the apple tree again! The weather of the 4 season had again tortured him more severely than before, but this time he seemed no more feeling to such a pain on his skin and emotion.Instead moved forward like a bull!

Eventually after a year…the day has come! The apple tree has been grown up, and there are so many and many apples hanging on the tree. He was so excited and couldn’t wait for those apples become ripe to eat, as he wanted to try the unique taste which his dad had told him before. It didn’t take long for it to be ripe. Once the apples dropped on the ground, this kid quickly picked up and took the first bite. He stunned…

Subsequently, he called back to his father
“Dad, finally I tasted the apple that I planted by my own.”
“How was the taste then? Is it unique as I told you?”
“No, dad, it is actually the same and normal taste as what I eaten at home... However, which made it so unique is actually just because of one apple tree, but it took me almost 2 years to plant it! How many troubles I had to face, and how many types of human being that I needed to experience before I can plant it on the ground and grow it.”
His father made a big laugh in the other side. The kid continued: “To be frank, Poverty to a man is a real terrible life to live with in this realistic society.Thanks dad! From this moment on, I will preserve well for this and the only apple tree that I planted for so hard.
“No, son, you not only have to take care your own apple tree well, likewise it is the time I shall declare to pass my entire Kingdom of Apple to your hand now when you come back to your own island. I’m believe that you have the right and capable to own it now.”
Without anymore question: “Yes, daddy, I will and I shall.”

Time Machine brings me back from the story. I sit on bed quietly, trying to recall few plot within the storyline. I guess I already understand the answer given by that grandmamma.

Going to kitchen, open the fridge and grab an apple, walk to the backyard and look at the moon upon the sky, take a bite of the apple and taste it. It actually bought from tesco 2days ago, and nonthing special actually,haha!

But there is a feeling I need to express to myself and to everyone else. Lets look forward for the Return of Xeno…I'm sure this day will be very soon.




-The End of the Apple Tree Story.-

[13/10/2009-Updated with one new perspective.]

[Briefing]

Notwithstanding our eye is open, but is actually blind like the ostrich. Human beings always compromise with what we have seen, justify what we had thought, simply because not many of us have the courage to admit that WE ARE STUPID. Example, there are so many people out there desire to learn the theory and principle of a rich successful businessman, and if you ask them “what attitudes drives you to the path of success?” Most of their answer will be “honest, humble, determination and passionate”, and so do u believe it? In this situation, many of us will choose to believe that these factors are the prerequisite behaviour we must possess in order to become a successful businessman. Please observe properly, they are rich now, and they do have the right to tell you what to be! Have you ever thought before? These are the real attitude you must learn from them? Or merely a tactic for them to hide their dark shadow and create a good image to the public? (This will be another topic, not discussing here.) Open your eye, take your head out from the sand, and observe the realistic, from this moment on.

Hopefully the “Starter” has relieved your appetite last week and now let’s come to the real “Main Course.” Before commencing, it is essential to mention that this post DO NOT apply to whom I seen them as:
1) My family member.
2) The people who I choose to be my real friend.
3) The people who I like.
4) All the Girls.
5) And to all Libra babies.

It is written in the way of a specific point with different perspective in 17, 21, and 25 years old respectively. Considering my time limit and workload per day, I’m only be able to share 10 points in this current post, but I suppose it is more than enough for you to consume quite a long time to think, analyse, observe, and take action to prove its feasibility in your real life.

Read properly for every sentence, do not rush, and keep it slow. Right after finish one point, stop a while, revised again and contrast with your current perspective. Lastly, enjoy your lovely weekend.

Here you Go...

[Main Course]

17: “What is right, what is wrong?”
21: “There is no right or wrong, but thinking makes it so. Everyone have their own interest to protect with, and so neither existed.”

25: “Let me tell you all something, all the above are bullshit! As long as I’m richer than you, whatever shits I said are ALL RIGHT!! YES, all the shits!” (This is a special message to those arrogant people who thought that they are so smart, nevertheless still driving a stupid small car!)

17: “Humble and lay low yourself is always the proper attitude when interact or communicate with the other people.”
21: “If you do not know how to grasp the opportunity to make yourself more apparent in an organization. Congratz to you! Your whole life will sit there and wait eat shit.”

25: “To me, either Arrogant or Humble both are simply a tactic or method to be exploited. Arrogant to the certain extent may have its strength to show your self-confident in order to cheer up your team, this would be deemed as the prerequisite behaviour of a team leader. Contrary Humble is actually a tactic to lay low yourself when your rival still hiding in the darkness or you need to sabotage the person in a sudden. Therefore Humble is not an ethic but a tactic you should learn. How to control these two attitudes in a body? This would depend on your real life experience and the level of apperception.”

17: “Teacher and Mummy teach me must be kind and helpful always, and so I must not let them down. I must try to help more people when they in need.”
21: “Don’t let this sentence “Should you contribute more of your kindness, you may have good return at the end (hou sam yao hou bou)” obsessing you. This is simply a tactic used by a beggar to beg money on the street. What I been through in the realistic life, almost all the kind-hearted people may not have good consequence, either die or bankrupt earlier.”

25: “As long as I’m rich, I’m the one who choose to be benevolent to you OR not to. You have no right to begging me for a chance. Either you, he, she, they must help me in the 1st place before asking me for the help, otherwise I don’t give a fucking care.”


17: “I’m scare of ghost especially sleep in darkness alone. Even some cold air flow behind my back, I might suspect a ghost stand right behind me?!?!”
21: “Ghost?! Sorry, I can even walk alone in the dark now. If they do appear in front of me, I surely no feel at all, simply because at this moment the only thing that can put me in fear is those sophisticated astute people.”

25: “Just to let the whole world know, right after the torturous experience that happened in my real life, I had lost all the emotion that an ordinary human has. To be frank, don’t make silly threatening or tricky tactic in front of me, observing towards one person very quick within few minutes of conversation is just like a piece of cake to me, that will only make me think that you are insulting your own wisdom. As even “fear” no longer contain in my cells now! I guarantee the 2 objects mentioned above, it is your turn to fear on me now!

17: “Why so many people discriminate black people one? Why can’t everyone stay peacefully together in this society? They are not wrong with black skin!”
21: “Now I know why so many people hate black skin people. They really cause a lot of problem and definitely a parasite in this society. However, as long as they are not bringing harm to my interest, I would like to be their friend meanwhile fully utilise their privilege in the field of business.”

25: “PUKIMAK, You this Ixxxan and Mxxxy Mother fucker! Babi dan lembu betul hang semua! 10 of my bad luck incidents, 9 of you sure involved! Try to speak in gentle way, “Genetic of Mxxxy and Ixxxan merely the compilation of Bastard and Son of bitch!” I’m proud not to have a good friend with black skin! and I will make you all as my slave!SOON!

17: “We must act within the ethic, so that we will be respected by everyone.”
21: “Ethic merely an excuse used by the poor people or coward. Learn this word, all the kiddo –“Doesn’t matter you are black cat or white cat, as long as you are able to catch the rat, you are good cat.”

25: “Doesn’t matter it is black money or white money, as long as the money in my pocket, it is all MY money.”

17: “Can’t stand to see the beggar ask for money, will donate some to those handicapped people. And blaming my dad by questioning him: “Papa, why don’t you donate him some money? Just few cents probably might save his life. Why?”
21: “Discovered the motive behind those charity events and the real intention of a charity master. To be frank, all are for profitable purposes. Eventually understand why my dad can be so cruel to those beggar and handicapped people.”

25: “Promise myself to become a charity master one day and so I would rather sacrifice one beggar’s life now in order to save more people in the future. Therefore I will not donate a single cent to anybody from now on. Instead saving all those money and prepare for the business, wishing myself can be a rich one day, so that I can help more people.”


17: “I must not let the environment to change me BUT I’m the one who to change the environment!”
21: “Due to series of events, I raise the white flag and surrender to my own childish thought! Simply because no one is able to fight with the fate and environment. Once they appear to change you, you have no way to escape inevitably.

25: “Eventually understand one true fact – You must be changed by the environment before you can have such powerful strength to fight and change the environment. Don’t play with this strength! That is the most powerful weapon ever!” (Fictionally, it makes me feel like I had been swallowed by the environment to a different abstract space and accidentally learnt some special skill. Finally I finished learnt it and walk out from that space, possessing with a powerful weapon within.)

17: “According to the theory in Art of War by Sun Tzu, “Don’t put the man at your side if you suspect him; don’t suspect the man should you put him with you.” This is very cool philosophy which I would like to apply in my ground of social.”
21: “Unsure to this theory, as everyone that I trusted will because of protecting their own interest ended up sacrifice and devastate my whole plan; OR probably the theory is correct, merely I do not have a good observation towards human being and so I trusted the wrong people? So Confusing.”

25: “Excuse me, Art of War by Sun Tzu! Please throw this book into the bin and study the Art of RealLife War Theory by Xeno: “Should you suspect the man, put him together and work with you! AND Suspect the man if he is working together with you.”

17: “Do not worry, if something happen, I will ask my dad to hire a lawyer to sue him.”
21: “How come all the problems I confronted with, always not be able to settle by law? Notwithstanding it is so apparent that the trouble maker has indeed infringed the law!”

25: “The real capable man utilised the loophole of the law but not obeying them. Feel so funny when look at so many people seems like a “robot” unknowingly controlled by the government with their law. Meanwhile, glad to see so many “robot” created everyday by government which might be helpful to me in the field of business. I really have to say 100 times thanks to government! (Wondering why so many people keep on blaming and reprimand the government? hahaha! pathetic! Real pathetic! Enjoy whole life blaming bahhh!)”


17: “In what measure we must have in order to achieve what we interpret as a successful businessman?”
21: “A successful businessman must working hard and working smart in order to achieve their goal!”

25: “(Beyond the elaboration) In the eye of a successful rich man, they will not possessing with any soul, and work without pride, no “working hard” exists. These are all simply an obligation for them and they enjoy it even though in the eye of an ordinary man it is very hard work, stupid work, lowest profile work.”



17: “Why everyone conceiving that Fairness and equality never exist in this world?Whatever......as long as I'm here, I believe that I'm capable to make it happens.”
21: “We are living in world of unfairness,even though in the win-win situation, there must be one side getting lesser than the other. And if you are poor,incapable, and without any value being exploited, you deserved to be discriminated. Therefore, there are no fairness and equality exist!What we can do is to accept all the unfairness treatment and living with it.”

25: “Oppppssss..sorry!I got myself wrong. YES,indeed,we are living in the world of unfairness BUT Fairness and equality are actually EXIST!!! However They only appear in one specific situation --- when you become rich. Simply because Fairness and equality are the game of rich people. They determine the meaning of fairness, neither you nor me have the privilege to give its meaning. However you have plenty choices...either you take his "fairness" and live with it or leave it. Leave it and continue to stay in your Wonderland OR Leave it to create your OWN FAIRNESS world.Pick your choice, That's it. Simple! Once you pick it,no more complaining.

End of the Maincourse.]

Perhaps, the entire points written above unlike those Life Principle which always “blow water” or crapped by those inexperience teenager or aunty uncle sit in coffee shop, talk like doesn’t need to pay for the cost. They are all my personal real life war experience, and speak beyond my deeply wound. Therefore you have no right to doubt it, to debate it, to question it, because it is real, it happens and happened. The only thing you have the right to do so --- That is to believe it.


Come until this point, I really can’t continue anymore as I’m facing some big trouble in this current month which needed to sort out as quick as possible, otherwise I will see you all in Malaysia next few months later and declaring MISSION FAIL! By the way, Humans are born to solve problem, find no surprise my life full of trouble every day, however just wishing more luck may accompany with me.

Hopefully I still can continue with the Blog in October. Bye, c ya everyone!

Due to some sequence of affairs recently, I’ve been impelled to come to the point of writing this topic. Hopefully it might be an "injection" to somebody that I really care with, and to whosoever that still living in their wonderland and reluctant to face the realistic.

Consider this month’s topic quite longer than the usual one. Thus, I have to split it to 2 parts ease in reading. Therefore it might comes with “Starter” (this week)1st and subsequent with the “Main Course” (next week).

Let’s commence with the “starter” 1st -a prompt question to ask and a short story to share.

[Starter]
Does anyone know why OSTRICH has been classified as the most stupid bird among all the Aves? I suppose it is not difficult to answer with scientific explanation, simply because they have a very small brain. Simple and Done.

Subsequently, let’s come to a meaningful kid’s story which I would like to share with everyone as it serves as a strong fundamental growth of my perspective and inspired me a lot especially in the evolvement process, at least, to myself, since 17years old.

[The story begins at ---

One day, a sunshine day, this is right after the storm raining consecutively for couple of days later. All the animals in the forest awakened from the gloomy weather, having a stretch with a yawn, inhale a fresh air, and absorb the energy from the sun. It is time for everyone to prepare one after another to hunt for food, to cure their age long hunger.

And here come with an ostrich with his fellow friends, also the ostrich, date together to go to the place as usual which harvest with their food. They enjoying eating and some are gobble down the food quickly, seems like it going to be finished by others.

However, while everyone is enjoying with their meal, an unexpected horrible crisis is impending over them closer and closer. Their image is reflecting sharply in the eye of a group of lions which are few miles away from them. They are starving, but not rushing to hunt, instead they are waiting patiently, swallowing with their saliva to cure the temporarily thirst...

Couple hours later, fellow ostrich finished eaten their food and prepare to go back home. The lions realise that it is the golden opportunity and so everyone start roaring and grind their claw, charging towards the ostrich with full speed.

They spot the lions and start screaming to warn all their fellowship. And you know what?!At this very moment, the bird’s gut instinct is neither to flee nor to fight its impending foe.

Instead


They bury their head into the sand!!!

Pathetically, the fellow ostrich still exalted complacency because of their smarty. “Since I can’t see them, they wouldn’t be able to see me.”

Well, at this point, I suppose everyone might be able to know the fate for all the ostrich-with-the head-still-in-the-sand now. The lions left the spot with their immense gratification along with a smile. The scene reverts back to peaceful atmosphere as like 10 minutes ago, but the only things left are the corpse of ostrich.
-------- End ]

Ironically, this is somewhat the foreseeable aftermath! But!! Please don’t laugh at the ostrich and draw the conclusion immediately. It is because you yourself could be one of the ostrich too!

The lion indicated here is like our current realistic world, they will come unexpectedly without you having the chance to deal with it.

Meanwhile the ostrich implies the people who couldn’t face the truth and the cruelness reality, instead they possess with the belief that if they do not touch on it, live with their own way, avoiding confront with every matters, refuse to see the world, and so they are able to be escaped from the dispute, and trouble will never knock their door. In fact, sort of these peoples simply just fragile from any impact which I would deem them as a coward.

To be frank, I’ve seen many peoples in my social ground that is living in their fantasyland. And this of course including me as well when I was young at the 17 years old, which is the very 1st year when I step out from my home sweet home, went to a big city and staying alone. Still remember that I had a lot of questions in my mind, and couldn’t distinguish what is wrong or right. Even if I thought I had made a right or kind decision to help someone, but it might ended up the wrong one. At the end of the day, I preferred to be an ostrich-like person, hide myself and the entire problem in a corner without courage to face it.

Hence, the path of my growing process commence at the 17 years old, subsequently come to the 21 years old where the 1st nightmare I ever had in my life, and this had lead to a huge changes in my perspective towards everything in the real life. And now, in this current 25 years old, I’ve come to the ultimate form which I strongly believe that this could be the last form of mine. Despite the fact that I can’t guarantee it might change again someday, at last but not least, current changes of perspective may be last very long.

WARNING: “For the next coming post, intense harsh words and perspectives might occurred which I suppose they are unpleasant to digest and so DO NOT READ the next post IF you still believe:

1)There will be a pretty wonderland remains in this world, no matter how ugly the realistic is.
2)Fairness and the equality must be achieved and shouldn't discriminate others in terms of race,status...etc.
3)Laws often be there for the justice to be served.
4)Conscience is the fundamental genetic of a human.
5)Your kindness and trust to someone will always be appreciated.

Things do not go as smooth as i thought and totally beyond my control now,and the dammit laptop's hardware crashed down and blackout in a sudden,rendering my life gloomed with darkness in this morning.It should be more wise to describe in the chinese word- 人生突然变成一片黑暗。

I ain't exaggerate the circumstance.Imagine in U.K,I got no car,not much friends,no more drama,no more dotA,what can I do other than just looking at the wall when come back from work?!?! This is definitely worst than imprison in the jail,more or less you might listen some insane screaming,but in my situation, I hear nonthing at all....how terrible!

Therefore gonna stop blogging for one month until everything solved.I'll be back with more interestinG topic..c ya aLL.

By the way,does this small post considered as blogging for the August one? xD so to justify my own guilty mind which I promised myself one blog for every single month >.<'' haha!Share with everyone an old song which I just discovered that it is so nice!

[ Upcoming Blog- Evolvement of Perspective in 17,21,25 years oLd Respectively(I) ]

Really appreciate to the recent Luck and of course my own ability as well,thought that I might face a critical challenge ever before September arrive,thus gonna stop blogging for couple of months,however,things turned out to be very smooth.Since this is the case,I shall adhere with the faith that "1 Month 1 bloG basic".

Right after listened to the "Love Story Meets Viva La Vida" composed by John Schmidt,I started to fall in love with his composition accent,surfing around his website,thought maybe can download or purchase this piano piece in his web. Quite unfortunate that it was not publishing yet V.V.However,found out that he is actually "happy as he is unsigned by any profitable organization or agent"(Quoted from JohnSchmidt),which has 1st gain my attention towards this oLd man.He really enjoy composing and play the piano very much without possesing the thought of making money.Without copyright you need to pay as well in order to download his music sheet,instead just One USD dollar.Yes!just One dollar you need to pay.

I was so infatuated with every piano clip in his web,clicking one by one,trying to figure out a special piece which could really urge my intensity to turn myself back to the piano room.(Due to the recent workload,I've come to the verge of decision giving up my hobby and choose the reality.)Eventually I found an even more cooL piano sheet than the Love Story,which I guess I shall sacrifice one working day for each week.

However,as usual,Libra vulnerability- paradox-minded comes to play a part to contravene with my determination.All the maths calculation automatically appear in my mind ( 90pounds (1day oFF working) x 4 (1month) =360pouns gone!) and if (360pounds x 12 (1 year)= 4320pounds) and if (4320pounds x 5.8 (msia currency) = RM25056). What The Fxxk!I have to spend RM25k++ in order to learn one sonG ?!?!?! Ridiculous! Considering I work 7 days a week,without any private time I could devote myself to other than just sleep,eat,pee,making shit,shower.How am I going to master this song meanwhile can earn that RM25k!Any idea?!

Anyway,set aside the mathematic calculation,try to watch the song's clip which I found in youtube played by someone else,I had rated him for 5 star.Of course i hope to have my own video clip as well,but with the precondition that I have to relinquish the RM25k++.

Here you go,Ladies and Gentleman - "ALL of Me" .Let me know if it is worth to spend that bunch of money in order to learn this song.



Share with everyone the Piano Piece - Just Right click the link below and press "save as",tht's it~~*
ALL of Me.PDF

[ P/S(10/7/2009): Due to the massive access to this music clip,the bandwith has gone beyond its capacity,probably you might not be able to listen some of it now.Sorry >.<'' ]

Recall from memory at few years back, I used to have a nickname --- JayChou =.='',which had been given by several gangs member of mine, OF COURSE not the compliment as it sounds instead!They were trying to fleer on me!Been claimed that whenever they ride in my car,the 1st song they listened must be jay. Despite of such impeachment,I hereby AGAIN deny myself to be his fan. At some rational point,this would be merely appreciation for his music.

His popularity undeniably covered the whole asia which is now stay at the top position among all the celeb.And You might not find surprise when the Malay,Indian,Korean,Japanese or Banana Chinese in Asia listening to his song...but I really damn shocked when realised that one of my british friend is Jay's fans!And he sang me a jay's song on the spot to eliminate my doubt!

Well,cut the crap. This blog simply just sharing my thought about his music. I'm pretty sure that majority of us might possess the convention in common especially listen to his specific new song for the very 1st time, you surely had such a thought "Cheh,So-So only".However...sooner or later,when you shower,pee,eat,walk or whatsoever you are doing,his song will auto play in your mindset without discover by yourself,then it will turn on the repeating mode, and then you started to sing,and then this song become one of your favourite.....spontaneously. So,tht's called Jay's Magic.

Cant deny the fact that he has a very strong fundamental piano skill&theory which render him good in improvisation and making a lotta good music as well as the GODly lyrics by his partner- Mr Fang >.<''.

Let us not neglect the magic behind the curtain which he had plant deeply into our mind.Since Im doing the research for the hypnosis skill,ill try to explain with its theory in brief in order to reveal part of the Jay's magic. (Don't scold me because of applying this hypnosis skill in every single aspect of my life yaa...am trying to learn and apply into real life.)

Ladies and Gentleman~~~*Hereby to present you few exampLes which are all my favourite song as well...Switch your speaker loud,I mean it,as Loud as you can,and sing together with him^^ Enjoy uR weekenD~~~*

[InitiaL D -Jay Jay Jay Chou]



UntiL this point,due to laziness,dun feel Like explaining with hypnosis,it will be an essay long if I insist.Thus, why don't we just relax and enjoy with his songs in this luvLy sunshine weekend and I will tell you why his music always my preference.Lets start with this Magic 1.

[ Magic 1- Additional Chorus Part with High Tune ]
(The specific part Which I love to sing the most.Quite unfortunate that I do not have a good and high vocal..zzZ.)

Ge Qian


waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ke Ai Nv Ren


Ke Ai Nv Ren~~~~ Niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Feng


Guoooooooooooooooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Fen Lie


Wo bu pei


Shi Guang ji


Sounds like changing from the 1st gear to 2nd...lolz.

Magic 2- Magic Word (wuw,jiu,he he ha hi)
The Jay's trademark,you might find it nowhere almost in every songs.I bet sometime you don't even realise that while listening. Try to repeat "ke ai nv ren" and "wo bu pei"

Ren Zhe


wuw wuw~~

Tui Hou


Tian Tian De


Jiut~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Shuang Jie Kun


He He Ha Hi~~

[ Magic 3- MeaningfuL Lyrics ]

Snail


Step by Step,although Im small but one day there will be the worLd which belongs to me~~~

Wish you Happy Birthday
( *~What a sad Birthday sonG~* T.T )


AnjinG
(The most classic 5 star recommended "sat luin yam gor".Whoever just broke up with bf/gf,this song always the 1st choice.Derive from the fact that there were already 5 friends I teman them to listen and sing this song when they broke up.)


Simple,Classic,MeaningfuL of the last 14 words -I chose to leave you,simply because I Love you so much...


Pa wa hui lai le
(I suppose translation is not necessary here,even a Malay or Banana chinese also understand what's the meaning.)


Mai gu pak wa mama...

xin yu


Real classic lyrics I like the most - The rain within my heart drop heavily,but it seems couldn't wet her hair,blast of cold air through the yard,and it freezes the fresh flowers holding in my hand.

Zhui Chang de dian ying
(If you are sitting inside jamban enjoy shitting,but someone hitting on the door and rush you out,you might want to sing him/her the 1st 6 words.hahaha xD )



Please Give me 2 minutes~~~

[ Magic 4 - Nice rap ]

Ta de Jie Mao


Qing Tian


Ban Shou Ren


Can anyone teLL me Wtf he's rapinG!I cant even find the lyrics for this specific part in his album!Anyway,i like this rap~~*

[ Ending part I Like the Most~~* ]

Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi


Shuo Hao de Xing Fu Ne



Hua hai


Eventually comes to the end. Wish you all and I have a great weekend.After this, I gonna stop blogging for 2 months++,quite busy Lately.This few months could be considered as the key point to me,the point serves like a key to start the car's engine,once the engine get started,it will be speedy like lamborghini.Wish me luck to achieve everything according to my plan.

By the way,please support good music,and purchase my original CD!whoopsss xD
Sayonara and see you all again in September!